Although we may have been practicing for a long time, the purpose of our practice often remains vague. Why is that? Because we only have a conceptual renunciation, not a genuine one. Without a strong longing for liberation, you will not experience the sense of release or letting go. “Letting go,” for you, is nothing more than a word—a concept.
Here’s an example. When a setback or shock hits you, and you go to see a teacher, and all that teacher says is, “Let go, let go, let go,” do you think you can actually let it go? At that moment, “letting go” is just two Chinese characters to you. You go home and keep struggling inside. Because the teacher did not give you a specific pith instruction to remove that pain, you may even internally criticize the teacher: “Oh, so you just tell me to let go—nothing else?” So not only do you fail to let go of the pain, you also start feeling dissatisfied with the teacher. The suffering doesn’t go away, it only gets worse.
Once, a fellow practitioner went to see a khenpo and asked, “Khenpo, why don’t you give me what I want?” What was it that he wanted? In fact, all a khenpo can give us are methods and instructions for liberation. If you refuse to let go, there is nothing he can do for you—and there is nothing even the Buddha can do for you. This is something we must do ourselves. Therefore, without genuine renunciation, relying solely on a conceptual mindset simply does not work.
Merely knowing some concepts is truly not enough, because conceptual renunciation lacks strength. It cannot remove the many kinds of attachment that lie hidden within our mental continuum. Genuine renunciation, on the other hand, is directed precisely at attachment. There are many forms of attachment, and very often our anger arises from attachment. We cling to something, and when others interfere with that attachment, anger arises. This is very similar to the situation of some fellow practitioners who fall in love. During a relationship, they often say, “I love you so much, I really love you!” Yet behind this so-called “love ” —is simply the fact that the other person brings pleasure—what is being clung to is that pleasure itself.
When the loved one leaves, hatred arises immediately. As we often see in films and in real life, many stories follow the pattern of love first, then hatred. When they love, the love feels extremely real deeply ingrained; when they hate, the hatred feels equally real. This shows that the love was not truly love for the other person, but love for the feelings that person brought. When the other person can no longer provide that feeling, hatred begins. This hatred, too, is actually caused by attachment. Therefore, in the Śrāvakayāna, breaking attachment is regarded as the most important practice. They use practices such as the contemplation of impurity (aśubha-bhāvanā) and skeleton contemplation to undermine attachment to pleasure and to the external objects that provide it.
Therefore, giving rise to genuine renunciation is very difficult. Do not think that we can easily generate true renunciation.
—Excerpted and adapted from Conceptual Renunciation and Genuine Renunciation
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